self-loathing
"As for self-loathing that has nothing to do with the writing. My self-loathing predates my writing. I also feel self-loathing when I pull on a shirt and notice it's too tight. I feel self-loathing when I yell at my son for what is, in the end, a minor indiscretion. When I don't call my mother or sister enough. When I ignore the needs of my friends. When I turn on the tv instead of reading a book. When I'm reading a book instead of taking a nap. The self-loathing is like a hot wind that's always blowing and all daily experiences are simply different vessels for channeling the wind. So I don't blame writing for that. I go to therapy."
"I am learning to accept that I may not rise to my high standards sometimes, but if I want to change something, I need to start with accepting the flaws, because no alcoholic ever recovered while in denial. And my self loathing is like alcoholism, it's an obsession and it needs to be cured within."
Now imagine how foolish you look when you say "We gotta tax those oil companies". Your subconscious self loathing is like a parade on display for me. I see it that clearly.
An Article comparing taxes with spreading peanut butter.
"This self-loathing is like a bitter, dark pit in the back of my mind. Sometimes it swallows up my common sense and completely consumes me. I am never entirely at peace. Unless... "
"The depression that is fueled by self-loathing is like an epidemic in our culture- but your dream emotion when you embraced your shadow self in the healing dream, was not repulsion, but compassion. It is possible to not need Prozac or Xanex. "
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